Married To A Christian But Sleeping With The Devil

I grew up choosing the wrong men to confide in, and had a brutal childhood which was out of my control. I married two men that were not Christian and my life was turned upside down. After divorcing the mental, and physically abusive men, I decided to change my life for God along with my growing healthy children. Four years later, I met a Christian man, who was heavily involved in the community, and church. He was great with kids, a great provider...I was in love with him. A year later, we were contentedly married. But... little did I know that his family had a history of mental problems, a diagnosis which he kept secret from me. He ended up being the worst husband I could imagine. I began to question God. What have I gotten myself into?